When I was here and askin you said go away
Now Im here laughin and you plead and pray
Wishing for my forgiveness my old sad heart
But now that's alll gone you've ripped it apart
When I wanted to hold you you pushed me off
When I tried to console you you called me soft
Months upon months i would sacrificed all for you
Hiding my sadness so you wouldnt have to see blue
We were so happy together or so i had thought
Every time i would see you my heart would knot
Your smile my radiant sunshine your eyes its rays
I wanted to bask in the sunlight and sleep for days
Everyday was a treasure with you just being around
even while we were sleeping no one making sound
Late nights on the phone while falling asleep
laughing giggling trying not to make a peep
Thinking about your face made me think of love
It scared me so much but i was hooked like drugs
how funny even know you bring a big smile to my face
but the better part of me knows you must be erased
Erased from my mind erased from my feelings
Erased all that time to erase all that peeling
all the pieces from my heart i had to pick up
I was already on the floor i had to get up
So now im a new person better stronger than ever
A new sense of pride my heart is much more clever
So in a way i have to thank you for teaching me much
Without you i could not perform produce in the clutch
So thanks for the pain thanks for the struggle
thanks for the rain thanks for giving me muscle
through your training ive becomed conditioned for life
I put my heartache in my bag right next to my strife
I keep walking on because now I know i am great
to fill someone up with love and get back hate
No normal person could do that and still be alive
but im still here standing and i will not die
And while not yet a veteran im still not a rookie
you cant throw me a bone or throw me a cookie
now the next one up had better realize fast
they dont oh well they get cut like my grass
Not here to mess around and be ya toy
Im a grown man now not some little boy
So to the muse of this poem you know who yo are
I just wanna say thank you for giving me my scars
